Planning for the weekend

Ok, lots of socializing this weekend. Lunch today with Steph and crew before we go see Hotel for Dogs. I'm going to hope for a salad and beer. Then tonight is Mando's birthday dinner party - veggie lasagna w/ salad and bread and vino. Shouldn't be too bad. I'm going to leave after that, so I don't feel obligated to drink all night. Tomorrow I have the option of three Superbowl parties, but may forgo all of them to do homework, workout and cook at home.

So far today:

Cereal w/ berries and Milk: 4 pts
rice cake w/ pb: 2pt

6 total

Tentative pts for today:

Lunch beer: 4
Lunch: 10

Wine: 8
Lasagna: 7
Salad: 4
Bread: 4

UPDATE:
Not the best (or worst) day ever. First of all, I'm not going to count up the points, mainly because I have no clue what they are... but I will try to take stock of what I ate after my intial 'planning' session yesterday.

For lunch I ended up w/ two pieces of cheesy/meaty pizza... lest they weren't very big. I also had a tasty beer and a salad. I had a few bites of popcorn at the movie, nothing major though. Then I didn't really eat again until dinner. I made the baked ziti for Mandy's birthday with a big spinach salad.... I fed 11 people! Super fun and pretty healthy/tasty. I did have a decent piece of cake too plus a Fat Tire and two small glasses of wine.

I didn't get much in for exercise but will make up for that... the only thing I did yesterday was walk to Whole Foods from Sara's place. That was a much needed, head-clearing walk.

TGIF

Cereal w/ milk and berries: 3
Biscotti: 2
Latte: 3

Quinoa: 3
Veggies: 0
goat cheese: 2

celery/pb: 2

15 pts so far

(soup and hike cancel each other out)

yogurt: 2

17 pts

-5 for AWESOME bike workout

12 pts so far today

maybe 13 or 14 w/ a few randoms thrown in...

rice cake w/ pb: 3

17

Salmon: 4
Fennel: 0
Oil: 2
Bread: 6

wine: 8

bar: 2
dip: 1

40 pts. w/o wine I would have been right on. damn socializing! not too bad though...

Thursday

So far today:

Waffle: 2
Bar: 2
Smart One: 2
tortilla: 1

crackers w/ spread: 1

yogurt: 2

celery w/ PB: 2

Soup w/ sour cream and peas: 5
pita: 2
19 pts total

-5 for workout

14 pts total

2pt cracker
2pt chips

18 pts

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wine 3
pepper 0
quinoa 2
cheese 3
oil 2
dressing 2

30 pts

extra glass for 3 pts

Lost 3!

Happy Weigh-in Day!

I was kind of afraid about weigh-in since I ate f'ing Mexican food for lunch (wft, who DOES that??) But in my defense I tossed the fried taco shells and basically made a salad ... and had some chips... well, a lot of chips actually. Shit.

And then a glass of wine w/ Scott for happy hour.

But THEN I worked out! I kicked that bike's ass.

And lost 3 lbs at WW tonight!!!! WOOOHOOO! Feeling awesome.

I wrote down in my other journal the points for the day, so I'll refrain, but I think I went over about 8 or so. I had that awesome cauliflower soup for dinner w/ peas. Sooooo good.

Good job, Kelly!

Cauliflower soup!

Just made an awesome Indian Cauliflower (and tofu) soup:

Oil: 5
Onion: 0
Garlic: 0
Broth: 0
Cauliflower: 0
Ginger: 0
Tofu: 5
PB: 4

14 pts total

3 pts/Serving

I added peas and a teaspoon of sour cream, which did the trick. Super f'ing good and healthy.

Today so far:

cereal w/ milk and berries: 4

Soup: 4
Sour Cream: 1

3 pts of other random crap while cooking

12 so far -5 pts for workout =

7 pts so far

1 c. whole wheat pasta: 4
1/4 C. Feta: 3
vinager/tomatoes/arugula: 0

14 pts

PB: 2
Waffle: 2
Random: 2

20 pts so far

85 dollars later...........

I went to get some necessities today from Winco and ended up spending way too much money. I loaded up on good stuff though: fish, scallops, chicken, squash, cereal, LC's, lots of fruit and veggies. Then I cleaned out the fridge when I got home, which was in major disarray. All is well now. I discovered some tasty Progresso soups for 2 and 0 points per can! Lots of good food to keep me on track.

Waffle: 2

Soup: 2

Pretzels: 1
workout for 5 pts, back to ZERO

rock on, kelly!

cereal: 5
PB: 2
Latte: 3

almonds: 3
craisins: 1

rice cake w/pb: 3
popcorn: 3

wine: 3

23 pts so far

Sunday with the black dogs...

Dogsitting Sole today; damn what a maniac! Woke up at Amanda's the morning and had coffee at Sara's... Then came home and exercised all of us. I rode the bike for a solid 30+ minutes, burning over 300 cals. The dogs ran around like lunatics outside. Super fun.

Now I'm eating lunch and getting ready to shower and head back to the eastside.

Cereal w/ milk: 4
Eng muff: 2
Cheese: 2
Sauce: 3

11 pts so far- 5 pt workout = 6 pts.

two tacos: 10
granola w/ milk: 4

wine: 6

26 pts

pasta: 4
veggies: 0
cheese: 2

32 pts

Good start! You're awesome, Kelly!

Always a new day!

What a great Saturday so far.

I slept in (until 8:45!), made coffee, worked out (5 pts), did Pilates (8 minutes... getting much better!), and now will finally make a brunch. I have more work to do today but will probably take the dogs to Mt. Tabor for a little hike at some point.

Food:
Eng Muffin: 2
Eggs: 2
Cheese: 2
Broccoli: 0

Rice cake w/ pb: 2
seeds, nuts, craisins: 3

soup w/ crackers: 8

19 points so far - 5 for workout= 14

wine: 6
pasta 5
cheese 3
nuts: 2
shrimp; 2

32 points for the day! Yay! I did it!

BACK HOME. Thank god.

What a fun trip... but jesus, I am so bad at keep track of points when I'm drinking and eating out and wooping it up all over the place. I've been craving my routine, so I'm really glad to be back. I lost a pound on Wednesday and really don't want to reverse that progress when I weigh in this coming Wednesday.

Food for today:

Toast w/ Nutella: 4
Cheetos: 3
Bars: 4
Soup: 6
Crackers: 3
Veggies w/ cheese: 4

wine: 6
chips/guac: 5
SC: 2
Meat: 3
Cheese: 2


42 points

I'm consistently going over because I stop carrying about counting points in the evening. I really need to drastically limit my booze intake. This is absurd.

points from the road

good decisions so far today! even though I'm on the road...

3 fiber one bars: 6
LC: 6
Yogurt: 2

14 so far

hello blog, i've missed you

Ok, while I haven't been the best blogger since I hit the road, I've been enjoying a nice combo of socializing, eating good food, working out and playing outside/hiking. Today I fessed up and wrote down yesterday's points... definitely went over. But I'm back in action today. Mandy and I had a light breakfast and went to the gym... then we took a picnic to the beach. Awesome!

Toast/PB: 3
Sandwich: 6
Goldfish: 5
Broccoli salad: 5
granola bar: 2
workout: -5

16 so far...

wine: 5
shrimp: 3
oysters: 4
fish: 4
bread: 3
veggies: 0
sauce/oil: 3

bar 2

40 points

Too bad I don't get 40 points everyday... I'd be awesome then.

Getting ready to COAST it

I got up early to swim and run errands... feelin' pretty good. It's supposed to be gorgeous at the coast!!!

Rice cake/pb/milk: 3

Salad: 7

Food for the day

yogurt/oats: 4
Subway/chips: 9
Coffe: 1
Rice Cakes w/ pb and milk: 4

18 total - 4 pt workout=

14 total

drinks:8
leftovers: 10
eng muffin:2
crackers/cheese: 6
granola bar: 3

43 points total

day started fine, then i lost control...

A new day. Happy Root Canal!

I'm at a fair with Ty today. Unfortunately this fair came complete with meatballs. Damn it!

Cereal/Milk: 3
Granola Bar: 2
Meatballs: 4
Cheese/fruit: 2
Juice: 2

Salad rolls: 10

23 pts so far
-3 for workout
20

pasta: 6
sauce: 2
cheese: 2
2 rice cakes w/pb and milk: 5

35 total

Wednesday Weigh-In: Down 3 lbs.

Today is fabulous! I lost three pounds at WW... stayed for the meeting; I feel inspired. I'm definitely not alone.

I just got done working out. I road the bike for 20 minutes and did situps. I tried pushups, but failed, so did some chest pushes(?) against the wall. My next goal is to find some good upper body strengthening exercises to do at home/in hotels.

This week's mission: Stay focused when traveling. Eat breakfast and lunch in the room. Eat healthy dinner with minimal drinking.

Food for today:

Milk/Cereal: 3
3 granola bars: 6
yogurt/oats: 4
Random stuff for snacks: 4
Rice Cakes: 2

19 total - 4 pts for workout

15 total

Wine: 4
Pasta: 6
Fish: 6
Cheese/Oil: 5
Nuts: 2
Veggies: 2

40 pts total. Yikes. That dinner was a little over the top.

college fairs. exciting.

My challenge today is to stay on plan even though I'll probably be eating on-the-go. I have a paper to write today as I sit here at these TWO four hour fairs, so I'm expecting that to keep me occupied.

Breaky:
Cereal w/ milk: 4

Snack at fair: 5

Lunch:
LC: 5
Egg: 2
tortilla: 1

17 pts + random pts = 20

@ fair 2 pts for Fiber one bar and other crap = 24

+ 5 pts from biking = 19 pts total

Dinner:
Quinoa: 4
Veggies: 0
Shrimp: 2
Coconut milk/oil: 3
wine: 3

31 total

making good decisions on the road

I'm on the road in Eugene today; I prepped food for it last night. Going out w/ Steph tonight... will definitely have some vino. Yeah!

Breaky:
Ceral/Milk: 3
Fiber ONe bar: 2

Snack:
Yogurt/Oats: 4
Coffee: 2

Lunch:
LC/Eng Muff: 8
Apple: 1

Snacks: 10

DinDin:
Potstickers: 4
CousCous: 4
Wine: 5

30 pts total
bike for 6:
35 pts FINAL

Had a great conversation with Keri tonight about addiction... what an amazing person she has become. Her support is so important to me; who knew we'd both finally admit our addictions at the same time and see ourselves for who we really are? I love her so much and would give anything to live close to her again. Although for now I think this is the best possible situation for us. We have our own space and lives but can still rely on each other for true friendship. I'm lucky to have so many close friends, but there are few people I feel as comfortable with as I do Keri.

Music and Food

Music makes me happy! I love the new mp3 player... listened to it while I walked Lucy up and down Mt. Tabor this morning. So good to have constant tunes again. SOOO good to walk outside; it's so green here. Oh yeah, we have spring blooms outside!

Break:
English Muffin:2
Egg w/ whites: 2
Cheese: 2
Tangerine: 1
Coffe: 0

total: 7

Snack: Coffee/Cookie @ Crema: 5

Lunch:
Chicken: 3
Nuts: 2
Cheese: 2
Dressing: 1
Avocado: 3

Fiber One Bar and milk: 3
Goyza: 3

DinDin:
Quinoa: 4
Yam: 2
cheese: 2
Oil: 2
Peas, Onion, Garlic, Chicken broth: 0

36 pts total
6 points from biking: 30

AWESOME DAY, KELLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I actually am finding this round of WW pretty fun. I like keeping track and blogging. And with the new bike and mp3 player, I'm very much in the same frame of mind as I was 4 years ago when I lost 90 pounds. This time I *think* I'm doing it for myself... I won't be successful unless I can grasp that.

So regarding this whole "Need to go on a date this year" resolution I have... I'm so scared of that. Like totally freaking out. I think I want to date someone who also battles an eating addiction. How will a non-addict know how hard it is to be me? How can I explain to a "normal" person that I dream about food, think about it 90 percent of the day, and constantly obsess over it. The shame and embarassment I feel around my friends is horrible, and I can't imagine spending an entire lifetime with someone and feeling like that.

One thing I know I for sure, my life does not have to be this lonely.

Saturday is Fabulous!

God, what a great day I'm having so far... I just got an MP3 player to go along with my Lifecycle! I'm about to load it up and have a kick ass homestyle workout.

Food so far today:

Breaky:
cereal/milk: 3

Snacks:
2 bars: 6

Lunch:
Salad rolls w/ peanut sauce: 10
LC: 6

Dinner:
Polenta: 3
Chicken: 3
Cheese: 2
Oil: 2
nuts: 2
onions, peas, balsamic, sriacha, arugual: 0

37 points total

30 minute workout for 6 point... leaves 5 pts for dessert! Pudding and a beer???

Friday - Food Post

Breakfast:
Cereal w/ Milk: 3

Snack:
Yogurt w/ oatmeal: 4

Lunch:
Chicken w/ pasta and pesto sauce:
10
Pudding: 2

Snacks:
Apple/Cheese/Cat Cookies/Triscuts/dip: 7

Dinner:
Salad: 2
Chicken: 5
Rice: 2
Oil: 2
Wine: 5
Chocolate: 4

46 points total
8 workout points=
38 (flexed 4)

GREAT DAY! The new bike makes everything better... normally I don't exercise at all on Fridays, because there is no spin class. On the new bike, I can get 7-8 activity points in 35 minutes. At home. Brilliant.

Day Two and Before Picture

Another day of canceled presentations. This weather is providing too much time at home... which is my enemy. I need to stay busy in order to be successful. Lucy and I took a 20 minute walk, and I'll go swimming in an hour or so. My meal plans are looking good; eating filling foods to stay satisfied. Had a victory at 9:00am when I reached for a snack and realized I wasn't really hungry. Habits need to change; too much idle time and pointless eating.

I pulled out my 'skinny' jeans last night. They will be my constant reminder of what I want- 20 lbs down by 4/13!!!

Lovely before picture, taken today:

Food Post- Thursday

Breakfast:
1 C Special K w/ 1/2 C 1% milk: 3 pts
Snack:
Fiber One bar and 1/2 apple: 2.5 pts.
Cat cookies: .5 pts

6 pts. total

Lunch:
Mahi Mahi: 4
Rice: 5
Arugula: 0
Goat Cheese: 2
Dressing: 2
Apple: .5
pudding: 2

Snack:
PB: 3
Candy: 2

Dinner:
Chicken: 4
Pasta: 4
Sauce: 1
Salad w/ vinagrette: 1
Extras: 3

Dessert: 3
42 pts total

Crap. I'm not very good at this. I'm over again. I did take Lucy on a long walk and went swimming for 35 minutes at least. I also bought a Lifecycle. Biking is now mandatory every. single. day.

Food Post - Wednesday

breakfast:
1 egg, 3 whites: 4
feta: 1
tomatoes: 0
oil: 1
bread: 2
coffee: 0

8 pts. used

Snack:
Popcorn: 2
WW bar: 2
Candy: 4
Apple: 2
18 pts used

Lunch:
tuna: 2
bread: 2
cheese: 2
grapes: 1
dressing: 1
seeds: 1
27 pts used

Dinner:
Salad w/ dressing/cheese: 3
Beans w/ oil/nuts/garlic: 2
Brown Rice: 5
Fish: 5

42 pts total

Dessert: 3 pts

45 pts total

Ok, not my best day. But at least I tracked everything (I think). Man, I put a bunch of random stuff in mouth all day long. Gotta work on that. On the bright side, I swam for about 35 minutes (front crawl) and earned some of those points back.

I'm proud of myself for making it this far today. Good job, Kelly.

first day of many many many days

No one knows I'm doing this blog. I'm just going to start it quietly and see where it takes me. I know I need a place to vent, to think, to report, to motivate, to hold me accoutable. Megan and I had a weightloss blog once, and it worked for a while, but fizzled out after some time. Perhaps the same thing will happen to this one. Or perhaps this will help me change my life.

The good from 2008:

I survived a car accident! Enough said.
My childhood best friend sobered up, and we're repairing our friendship.
I visited Yellowstone National Park (checked that off the to-do list).
I won a Four-Star award at work.
I made amazing new professional contacts.
I at least 'thought' about going on a date (better than I can say for 2k7!).
I hiked up Turtleback Mtn. Almost died doing it, but whatevs...
I had a phenomenal start to the school year.
I learned how to knit.
I kicked ass at karaoke.
I continued to establish some amazing friendships.
Oh, and no biggie, but I started my Masters Degree. I'm getting A's.

To improve for 2009:

NEED to follow some sort of budget.
NEED to track WW points and attend meetings - no matter what or where!
NEED to go on a date.
NEED to lose 20 lbs by my birthday. THIS SHOULD NOT BE DIFFICULT.
Knit a sweater before year-end.

I'll stop here with the so-called resolutions.

Happy 2009, Kelly. You deserve the best life possible... filled with lots of love.

Cheers!

UPDATE: I just weighed in at WW @ 260 lbs. Not great; not too bad either. Still 30lbs. less than when I joined WW in 2003. But... 55 lbs. heavier than my lowest recorded weight. Ouch. I suppose I should post a 'Before' pic as well.